It is hard to describe the feelings I (Annalisa) have been experiencing over the last week. They’re somewhere on the continuum between excitement and anxiety. While I knew we were ready to come to Nepal to begin the execution phase of this incredible journey, I don’t think I was mentally prepared for arriving here. Truthfully, I don’t think that anyone from the US can really be prepared for seeing Kathmandu for the first time.
Tanja called her blog Beauty Lost & Found. It’s an apt title – and I was thinking about exactly that as we drove from the airport to our hotel. There is beauty here; the women’s faces and saris, the beautiful fruits and vegetables being sold at the roadside, the old brick buildings with their detailed ornamentation work and carved wooden doors, the temples, the colors of marigold and pink and orange that you see amidst the haze that settles in the valley.
But as we drove through the streets (an adventure in itself – think of a giant game of chicken between cars, motorbikes, rickshaws, buses & trucks, pedestrians and stray dogs), we saw trash everywhere, homeless children, a river polluted with raw sewage, people scrabbling out a basic existence by selling food in the hot sun… and more. Down-river, there was smoke. “That’s where they burn the bodies,” Tanja said. We drove on. We arrived at our hotel perhaps 20 minutes after leaving the airport. All that, in 20 minutes. I fought to hold back tears then, and we were only at the beginning, and watching from a distance, so to speak.
It is exactly this which confirms that we are supposed to begin here, and begin now. This is where we can do something. This is where we can serve. We don’t really know what awaits us tomorrow, when we meet with the first of the co-ops, but we are hopeful, and hope is needed here. It truly is.
I can hardly believe that it’s been almost two years since I left on a journey to the other side of the world that profoundly changed my life. So very much has happened in the last 2 years, all of it (with much grace) has somehow propelled me to this very place.
And so, it’s with great, great joy that I ready myself and my luggage to return to Nepal in just a few days. I am equally thrilled to be returning with my friend, partner-in-crime and co-founder of GIVEGIVE, Annalisa Oswald. It is quite literally, a dream come true.
I just re-read a couple of the posts from my blog/journal of that trip (Beauty* Lost and Found), particularly the posts about Nepal. I was reminded afresh of the raw beauty of that country. The mountains, the people, the community. It’s so different than my western life here. In some ways shocking, in some ways a total relief.
We are really excited about what lies ahead— even more so because of the gift of retrospect, the ability to look back, the ability to see purpose in the often rocky, messy journey that brings you to the place where you can finally see part of why things happen the way they do. My heart is grateful for that.
Here’s a sneak peak of what we will be sharing with you in a few days when we are on the ground. See you soon Nepal!
Nepal | Places: http://beautylostandfound.blogspot.com/2010/10/nepal.html
Nepal | Faces: http://beautylostandfound.blogspot.com/2010/10/nepal-faces.html
We discovered HOLSTEE and their super inspiring manifesto a few months ago, right around the time we started GIVEGIVE.
They just did a really awesome collection of stories of people that are making shifts in their lives to do something different, following their passions, etc. And, they included us in their collection. We are thrilled!